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Name: concon
Country: Canada
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Birthday: 10/2/1991


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Saturday, August 22, 2009

checkmate
i've won.
It's been a while:
in Toronto, we finally decided the end of our null-relationship.
Nothing was ever there - you only told me you loved me because I forced it on you; it was something I wanted to hear;
You brought me to my knees just asking for you to love me - I was so desperate and delusional
BUT/ I was just in love.
You told us we needed to take a break - and I couldn't do it.

After the trip, I locked you out of my life; it wasn't healthy for me.
That night, you were really sexually aggressive - I'm so glad I said No - At least now I can look myself in the mirror sanely and know I've earned some self respect.
After that - it was over.

I was heartbroken; But I knew deep inside; one day you'll fall THAT hard in love with me - and I'll definitely tell you we needed to go on a break, and push you away.

Now, it was the chance.
You finally missed me. 
The happy-go-lucky, always bothering, super bossy, me, who was in love.

But sorry :) I'm not interested anymore
I woke up; 
Beg for me or get out of my sight



Friday, July 03, 2009

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july03
you're on vacation and yet I feel distanced - why is that?
we are miles apart to begin with
I'm touched because you said you loved me - although it was only an expression of the moment; I took it like you meant it - how silly.
We had a night with just you and me
I told you that we had so much obstacles in our way; obstructing our relationship - But you denied it
I've always had an easy time in relationships because I knew exactly what they were thinking - I knew exactly how to play them. But I've only met a few people who I could not read  and had no power over.
You keep the relationship fresh.
Thank you for saying you love me, I'll see it through we become official.


Tuesday, June 23, 2009

day 1.
Out of frustration, I passionately told you my reason: I loved you.
After only two weeks of talking to you in daily intervals - I could not resist your touch.
But your touch - it never existed.
It was, something I created myself in my fantasies - since you are nothing but miles away:
You drowned me in your subconscious poison. You were unaware of my pain.
Driving me insane - You're driving me insane.
Your nonexistent touch; driving me insane.
The way you passionately touched me and kissed me; was only the dream I perceived.

You told me I needed to be strong.
"Sorry if I'm coming on to you so strongly, you're just so amazing." ran out of my lips.
But rather, ran through my fingers on the keyboard:
Into a mass universe; an electric vista of god-knows-where you are?
My conclusion was to give up - ignorance isn't strength.
But wait - this isn't ignorance. This is learning to put myself at the center of my life as well.
I'm passionate and intense - I want you to acknowledge my love for you; but that's it.
I'm not asking for anything in return.
The strength that you talk about is the strength to be patient with you.
Instead of forcing my passion on to you, I should wait patiently until you are ready
If love was only a spur of the moment, then it would never work out.
So alright - I'll try it.
I'll listen, instead of speak.
And I'll see where you take me.



Tuesday, June 16, 2009

RCS Grad 2009

What I've learned at my time in high school: Friends are what you make them to be. Friendship does not work if only one side of the party inputs effort. This applies to all relationships; It's a 2-way street. There's no give and take; only give and share. Communication is essential. Take every opportunity to communicate; but stand your ground against gossip. That is not communication, but deception. A more personal experience would be friends that I've had that can only communicate through gossip. The media has enough scams and threats with celebrity gossip as a cataract preventing the real truth of current events; why shroud yourself into these things at an already sheltered building with a Christian title? These friends can't be trusted and can only remain on the standard level of: an acquaintance. Whether or not you've grown up with them since First Grade; people change, and like everything, follows the same trend of change. In my story, I'm the protagonist - And I definitely won't be known as a flat character without change and self-reflection. I will follow what I've diligently planned as my future. On a more somber note: Cheers to you, "Friends" who've stabbed and chastised me in the back, I bid you a simple farewell. "Friends" who have gossiped about me  because poison is all that can exit your mouth, Cheers for the day you will be crushed, may you take the blow lightly. For friends who have cherished me: Come back and find me when you're done your studies. We'll have much to talk about just the few of us drinking wine under the moon. (With air conditioning, of Course. :) )

I hope we get shattered in the bits and pieces when we leave our shelter. It will only be until then that you will know that we all need God.




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